Have I always been a worrier?
It’s a question I’ve been asking myself a fair bit recently. After my first few blog posts about recovering from anxiety, two of my oldest friends told me they always remembered me saying I felt worried when we were growing up. And then, last week, I stumbled across some old stuff from my high school/college years.
For some reason, the school I went to stocked an array of random blank postcards in the library. And, judging by the amount of notes I found written to me from friends on said postcards last week, we clearly never used the library to do much actual work! In the middle of some happy reminiscing, one postcard stopped me in my tracks.
“Don’t worry…,” it started, and went on to try and cheer me up about whatever I was apparently worrying about that day. Then I found another one. It began, “If you ever feel low or stressed…,” and, again, went on to offer some words of wisdom about whatever I was worrying about that day!
The notes just kept coming and on each, there it was – evidence of my teenage anxiety written clear as day. It was so strange to read. I doubt I ever would have classed myself as ‘anxious’ back then, but clearly I’d reached out to people around me knowing worry was something of a struggle. What’s encouraging, though, is that the people I reached out to were clearly also ready to listen.
With World Mental Health Day having taken place last week, I felt it was an apt time to share these reminiscings, and my gratitude to those friends who just let me talk. I understand how someone constantly sharing their irrational stresses with you can be draining. But if you’re a listener like they were then trust me, you’re doing something amazing! When I’m worried, I’ll shoehorn it into conversation with anyone and everyone who’ll let me get a word in. Usually, I just want to get it off my chest but other times I just want someone to reassure me that it’s all going to be ok.
So to everyone who’s willing to listen (especially if you’ve listened to me in the past) thank you! I guarantee your kindness and your patience will be helping someone out there move one step closer to living life ‘worry free’.
Do you have someone in your life who’s just willing to listen? Feel free to share your story in the comments below, or via @Rinroad on Twitter.